I am a Christian. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and now I will be able to go to Heaven. I am convicted by the truth that this is good news and I should share this with the world. I am also convicted to live every day like Jesus did while he lived on Earth.
These are a few of the convictions I have as a person. I cannot deny this about myself. You ask me" what do you believe in?" and most likely my answer will be somewhere along the lines of what I spouted bout two seconds ago. All that being said... I will admit I haven't been good about sharing the good news to people. It isn't that I don't want to or I am ashamed of what I believe in, I guess there's part of me that's scared. I could care less of the thoughts of others, but I do care about God. I am a strong Christian in the sense that my faith in Him will never waiver, BUT I will be honest in saying that I am not a strong Christian when it comes to studying the Bible and immersing myself daily in all the goodness of the history that God laid down before me.
Here is where the conflict kicks in... I am unsure if I am ready to be responsible for this but at the same time I know I have to do it. I need to work on my faith and convictions before I can honestly go out in the world and share the gospel with the confidence that the good news deserves. It took me awhile but I am finally taking myself on the right path.
WHY THE HECK THEN IS THERE SO MUCH PRESSURE? Twice this week, I have felt a guilty twinge and then plain anger because of this issue. I do concede to the fact that as Christians we do have a responsibility to live and share the goodness of God. BUTTT... Does it mean I have to send the email chain letter? Does it mean I have to go up to strangers in the busiest shopping season and pretty much intrude on presonal space? Some will say yeah. The gospel is offensive and I should be prepared to take the spitting and the swearing and the rejection. Well... I say nay. There are those out there that are meant to be that way... bold and conquering persecution and then there are those like me.
I believe that I will share the gospel in a powerful bold voice. I know that it'll come. But come on people! I'm a bit of a wimp! Let me work out my issues. When I share his word in that way I'll be effective.
So stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not a lost cause! I do hold true to my responsibility and will proceed in the sphere of influence God has called me to be a missionary.
SIGH
Dear reader, ( as I'm pretty sure the one person who stumbled upon this dusty old blog is quite astute in finding random stuff online)
You are a very smart person. You know that in this world there are many out there who'll try to preach to you and tell you things that won't seem genuine. I am sincere in saying this, believing in God and Jesus is a wonderful thing. It doesn't entail being perfect or doing all these rituals all it takes is faith.
If you want to know what I mean feel free to email me.
choi.annej@gmail.com
